Silly things for silly reasons

[zoronoa]

Then something like this floats around.

And reading it, it really strikes a chord in me. I have problems when it comes to my art. Not the quality especially, but the circumstances under which I seem to draw them. I read a lot of stuff, books yeah when I find a good one, but fic - SO MUCH, and I get inspired by them which is half my problem. Most of the stuff I draw is inspired by other people and sometimes very directly related to a particular fic. The number of drawings and abandoned scraps and doodles I have, leftover from a rush of fic-inspired muses, is so huge - because yeah, I'm that person who doesn't comment or friend or even introduce myself because I'm always afraid people will think I'm too forward, so naturally, I don't give them the art either. Because at that point, when I first say hi, I probably have about 5 or 6 drawings done, inspired by their writing - and to just dump the art on that person and then disappear again... I don't know.

But now, it kinda all seems a bit silly. I haven't ever given art to a person who hasn't seemed genuinely happy about it, though I still worry about limits - do they think I'm weird? Over the past few months, thoughts like that have pretty much faded away, though they do spring up strongly from time to time (right before I hit the send button ohmygod).

Now, my biggest problem is that I have no idea where to post stuff anymore. I had a gap of about 2 years where I almost completely didn't interact on LJ after having been quite involved in some communities (not so much in my journal) and now I find that none of my interests then are my interests now, my art looks completely different - in a good way but still, and I'm back at square one. Getting into new communities, trying to talk to new people and it's a lot harder than I remember it being. 

So yes, taking the first step by saying I really don't give a shit about what people think (well, I still do, but I'm working on it) and begin to just spreading the love. I write shit, to speak plainly, but I'm working on that too and practicing. Until I'm ready for any fanfic, fanart is good too, no?


Or:


So keeping the continuing holiday spirit and akamine_chan's words in mind. I'm going to post one of those pieces of fanart that I've kept hidden because of silly reasons.

Done for sirona_gs and delicatale for their inspiring rants and fics regarding Clint/Phil, which - I really must say, I would never have thought about, ever, but now seem so intriguing.

Disclaimer: The Avengers do not belong to me, I'm not earning money from this.
Note: It's better to ask than to just take. I say yes to archiving 99% of the time, so please, be considerate of the effort I took to make this and don't just pass it off as your own. Also, fuck you Clint and that detailed leather number you're wearing, really.





Happy New Year guys!

Comments

[zoronoa.livejournal.com]

It actually makes me feel better with someone telling me that it's not weird and a relief, too, so thank you! I've been kinda caught up in silly things that in hindsight seem really dumb.

On that note, I actually have a H50 piece that I drew for one of your fics looong ago, well, a few months ago. My problem is; I don't remember which fic that was... It was one with Steve swimming, and Danny waiting on the lanai... I think... Anyway, this snowflake challenge has kinda kicked my butt into just finishing stuff I've started and posting it, so some more stuff might be coming your way soon.

And glad you like the art <3