Silly things for silly reasons

[zoronoa]

Then something like this floats around.

And reading it, it really strikes a chord in me. I have problems when it comes to my art. Not the quality especially, but the circumstances under which I seem to draw them. I read a lot of stuff, books yeah when I find a good one, but fic - SO MUCH, and I get inspired by them which is half my problem. Most of the stuff I draw is inspired by other people and sometimes very directly related to a particular fic. The number of drawings and abandoned scraps and doodles I have, leftover from a rush of fic-inspired muses, is so huge - because yeah, I'm that person who doesn't comment or friend or even introduce myself because I'm always afraid people will think I'm too forward, so naturally, I don't give them the art either. Because at that point, when I first say hi, I probably have about 5 or 6 drawings done, inspired by their writing - and to just dump the art on that person and then disappear again... I don't know.

But now, it kinda all seems a bit silly. I haven't ever given art to a person who hasn't seemed genuinely happy about it, though I still worry about limits - do they think I'm weird? Over the past few months, thoughts like that have pretty much faded away, though they do spring up strongly from time to time (right before I hit the send button ohmygod).

Now, my biggest problem is that I have no idea where to post stuff anymore. I had a gap of about 2 years where I almost completely didn't interact on LJ after having been quite involved in some communities (not so much in my journal) and now I find that none of my interests then are my interests now, my art looks completely different - in a good way but still, and I'm back at square one. Getting into new communities, trying to talk to new people and it's a lot harder than I remember it being. 

So yes, taking the first step by saying I really don't give a shit about what people think (well, I still do, but I'm working on it) and begin to just spreading the love. I write shit, to speak plainly, but I'm working on that too and practicing. Until I'm ready for any fanfic, fanart is good too, no?


Or:


So keeping the continuing holiday spirit and akamine_chan's words in mind. I'm going to post one of those pieces of fanart that I've kept hidden because of silly reasons.

Done for sirona_gs and delicatale for their inspiring rants and fics regarding Clint/Phil, which - I really must say, I would never have thought about, ever, but now seem so intriguing.

Disclaimer: The Avengers do not belong to me, I'm not earning money from this.
Note: It's better to ask than to just take. I say yes to archiving 99% of the time, so please, be considerate of the effort I took to make this and don't just pass it off as your own. Also, fuck you Clint and that detailed leather number you're wearing, really.





Happy New Year guys!

Comments

[ladydeathfaerie]

my gods, that is just stunning. (oops. is my Freudian slip showing? i almost typed studding!)

i think its absolutely not strange or weird or bizarre at all to become so inspired by someone's words (words! i write all the time and i never imagine words evoking something as... THIS!) that one must sit down and DRAW what they see out. i know, as an author, i would KILL to have someone take my vision and turn it into something as mind blowingly gorgeous as this. seriously.

i know i don't know you from Adam, or Eve, but i say fuck anyone who thinks its odd that you want to do this. don't post it for anyone but yourself. if this is an indication of what you're capable of, you have no need to worry that people will say anything bad about your art at all.

thank you so much for sharing this because... yeah. it would be a crime not to.

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